I most certainly did. Of course, Eridanus and I completed most of our tasks in the course of a single night together - ah, though if you missed the recording of it, that's probably for the best. I know you're a bit squeamish!
[ Just, not about the torture and the gore. The horny part, on the other hand... ]
In any case, it delights me to hear that, dear Annie! Common interests are the basis for any lasting connection, after all. It's good to know you're finding others who share yours. I suppose that means you, too, enjoyed playing that silly little game, then?
My new friend helped me out with some things like that. I think? I don't need to know the full details.
Oddly making a business arrangement was good for me. He made sure I was comfortable. He even threatened the camera men. He didn't want creative liberties taken after I explained some things.
He also had amazing ideas for our mutual violent prompts. We hung a man and made him confess. Each time he admitted to something terrible I cut a web.
Honestly? I think making a new friend was good. I had a few run-ins with others. There was only one "awkward" encounter.
The more you say, the more I want to meet this young man for myself! I assume he's young, anyway. Not that it really matters - either way, you'll have to introduce us sometime, dear Annie. It takes a particular kind of depravity to turn torture into a game, and I'd like to experience it firsthand.
I hope the others weren't anything too unbearable, little one?
I think he's the sort of guy who really just enjoys the thrill of his games. He wanted to win at bingo and when he saw what was on mine he had a brilliant plan.
I'll introduce you sometime.
Frankly the rest could have gone better. My card had too many kissing prompts. I made the mistake of kissing someone I didn't care about romantically.
I think it made this guy who sort of is interested in me jealous. I was trying to avoid hurting his feelings because he always seems to get easily irked by these ridiculous things that happen. And a touch jealous on weird ways?
I unknowingly kissed him when he was under control by that thing in that mountaintop party.
I don't get him. Guys are weird. I think the only real fun I had was when I wasn't worried about hurting someone's feelings.
Ah, yes. All the kissing - and better. If I hadn't already realized the mortals of this peninsula had a hazardous preoccupation with our mutant forms, I certainly would have now! I would call it a sick fascination, but how eager they were to watch us torture and kill their kin makes it pale in comparison. Wouldn't you agree?
Ah, but dear Annie - even if men are strange, women are as well. Trust me - I've seen the drama of enough jealous mortals play out on my ship to say that with certainty. Do you know why that is? I'll tell you: It's because of your mortal heart. You and he are both filled with an irrationality that I can only envy. After all, when the Imperium elevates men to the ranks of the Astartes, it strips our thoughts of all those disruptive emotions!
I refused to do more than more or less make-out with someone. I won't have some weird perverts seeing me do anything that I'd prefer to do with any future partner. We all have our lines.
God. The sad part is that one time before Dylan showed up I did get to kiss a girl. Honestly due to timing I could have been dating her instead of him but he was new and different.
Wait, you think romantic love is irrational? I guess that makes sense? Romantic love takes up a ton of time. Plus it might be problematic if a bunch of soldiers couldn't stop falling in love. I still don't mind the drama though it's kinda fun seeing if I can make him blush.
He keeps making me blush and obviously I can't let him get away without returning the favor.
Maybe, or maybe not. What is irrational is the way that feeling makes a person behave. You've already said so yourself! More than that, of course, is that such strong attachment means we might be in danger of placing something before our duty to the Emperor. And we can't have that, now can we?
[ Of course, that's a joke, seeing as his Legion did exactly that. But that was for the sake of loyalty to their Primarch and their own pleasure, not the topic at hand. ]
Still, no one who has dwelled within the Eye of Terror as long as I have has any right to speak of irrationality as a failing. Our very existence is insanity at its core. No, whatever the form our emotions take, the only virtue that exists is to embrace them fully - without the shackles of restraint or logic. I hope you weren't expecting to hear me say otherwise!
Seems to me that didn't exactly work out. But yeah you're right. There is a kind of nonsense that happens. I can't figure it out.
I'm glad you didn't. I didn't expect it either given some of your own views. I'm still trying to figure out how to act on my feelings without spooking him. I honestly think at some point someone made him feel like he wasn't worth their time or whatever. He hasn't wasted mine at all.
I'm not sure I could do logical anyways. I'm a bit too chaotic when left to my own devices. I think some part of me gets bored and then I start getting ideas.
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I made a new friend. The kind who doesn't mind torture. It's fantastic what people are willing to share.
<aeternus>
Of course, Eridanus and I completed most of our tasks in the course of a single night together - ah, though if you missed the recording of it, that's probably for the best. I know you're a bit squeamish!
[ Just, not about the torture and the gore. The horny part, on the other hand... ]
In any case, it delights me to hear that, dear Annie! Common interests are the basis for any lasting connection, after all. It's good to know you're finding others who share yours.
I suppose that means you, too, enjoyed playing that silly little game, then?
<a.dyer>
Oddly making a business arrangement was good for me. He made sure I was comfortable. He even threatened the camera men. He didn't want creative liberties taken after I explained some things.
He also had amazing ideas for our mutual violent prompts. We hung a man and made him confess. Each time he admitted to something terrible I cut a web.
Honestly? I think making a new friend was good. I had a few run-ins with others. There was only one "awkward" encounter.
<aeternus>
I assume he's young, anyway. Not that it really matters - either way, you'll have to introduce us sometime, dear Annie. It takes a particular kind of depravity to turn torture into a game, and I'd like to experience it firsthand.
I hope the others weren't anything too unbearable, little one?
<a.dyer>
I'll introduce you sometime.
Frankly the rest could have gone better. My card had too many kissing prompts. I made the mistake of kissing someone I didn't care about romantically.
I think it made this guy who sort of is interested in me jealous. I was trying to avoid hurting his feelings because he always seems to get easily irked by these ridiculous things that happen. And a touch jealous on weird ways?
I unknowingly kissed him when he was under control by that thing in that mountaintop party.
I don't get him. Guys are weird. I think the only real fun I had was when I wasn't worried about hurting someone's feelings.
<aeternus>
I would call it a sick fascination, but how eager they were to watch us torture and kill their kin makes it pale in comparison. Wouldn't you agree?
Ah, but dear Annie - even if men are strange, women are as well. Trust me - I've seen the drama of enough jealous mortals play out on my ship to say that with certainty.
Do you know why that is?
I'll tell you: It's because of your mortal heart. You and he are both filled with an irrationality that I can only envy. After all, when the Imperium elevates men to the ranks of the Astartes, it strips our thoughts of all those disruptive emotions!
<a.dyer>
God. The sad part is that one time before Dylan showed up I did get to kiss a girl. Honestly due to timing I could have been dating her instead of him but he was new and different.
Wait, you think romantic love is irrational? I guess that makes sense? Romantic love takes up a ton of time. Plus it might be problematic if a bunch of soldiers couldn't stop falling in love. I still don't mind the drama though it's kinda fun seeing if I can make him blush.
He keeps making me blush and obviously I can't let him get away without returning the favor.
<aeternus>
More than that, of course, is that such strong attachment means we might be in danger of placing something before our duty to the Emperor. And we can't have that, now can we?
[ Of course, that's a joke, seeing as his Legion did exactly that. But that was for the sake of loyalty to their Primarch and their own pleasure, not the topic at hand. ]
Still, no one who has dwelled within the Eye of Terror as long as I have has any right to speak of irrationality as a failing. Our very existence is insanity at its core.
No, whatever the form our emotions take, the only virtue that exists is to embrace them fully - without the shackles of restraint or logic.
I hope you weren't expecting to hear me say otherwise!
<a.dyer>
I'm glad you didn't. I didn't expect it either given some of your own views. I'm still trying to figure out how to act on my feelings without spooking him. I honestly think at some point someone made him feel like he wasn't worth their time or whatever. He hasn't wasted mine at all.
I'm not sure I could do logical anyways. I'm a bit too chaotic when left to my own devices. I think some part of me gets bored and then I start getting ideas.