I didn't think I was a killer. I used to think I did what I needed to because I had no choice.
But I did have choices. I could have gone to the food pantries that were set up. I didn't though because I hated the idea of being weak. I wanted to be strong in the face of all the bad things that were done to me. If that made me into a murderer then so be it but at least I still have a voice and agency when it comes to who I kill.
I even have my own rules. Standards make us who we are.
I don't know what feels right anymore but at least I don't hurt so much.
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But I did have choices. I could have gone to the food pantries that were set up. I didn't though because I hated the idea of being weak. I wanted to be strong in the face of all the bad things that were done to me. If that made me into a murderer then so be it but at least I still have a voice and agency when it comes to who I kill.
I even have my own rules. Standards make us who we are.
I don't know what feels right anymore but at least I don't hurt so much.